A Sinking Ship

that's what our relationship feels like to me right now. a sinking ship.
it's been a couple months now since our ship has been sinking, sinking, sinking..


a while back you questioned my love for you, and now i am doing the same. do you still love me?
our relationship just feels like a daily routine. thats harsh, but it's the simplest way to put it.
you barely show any affection towards me. it barely seems like you notice me. we talk about nothing.
this week, will be the same as last week. and next will be the same as this week.

it's always the same, never changing. a routine.

honestly, that burning passion we used to have burned out somewhere along the way.

i love you. i love you uncontrollably. but sometimes i wonder how and why we are even together.
i want to be with you, i unquestionably know that. but i wonder about you. i wonder if we SHOULD be together. our relationship has become so...bland. i've tried fixing it, but i don't know what to do. i don't feel like i ever get anything in return. should we take a break? what do we do?
i don't know what to do.
you need to help me, baby, please. HELP ME.
i feel like i'm suffocating. i feel like i'm losing you.
i am utterly and completely losing you. that's what it is.





i love you. i want to be with you all the time. but at the same time, you are the ONLY thing in my time. sometimes i worry that our lives have just become to revolved around one another.
i don't have a problem with that. but...i feel like we're missing out.
we don't hang out with our friends, ESPECIALLY me. whenever we DO go hang it's always with your friends...i mean i guess i'm friends with them too, but they're YOUR friends.
i miss hanging with my friends. but i feel bad, because whenever i go do something without you, you're usually stuck at home doing nothing because you don't have a ride. and i feel like if you're not doing anything, i shouldn't be doing anything....
idk. i'm not sure what my point is...